Lucid dreams

Hoi !

   If you're one of the regular readers, then you shall recall one of my very first posts where I mentioned how I love dreaming, and enjoy them a lot. Doesn't matter if it was a nightmare or a sweet dream, I enjoy them either ways, sometimes wish I could have popcorn & Cola while dreaming.. because things get interesting!
   You could scroll down or find the first posts to know what I think of dreams.
  
    
  
     I quote what I wrote in the last post

Lately, I've been having those dreams, in which I can't identify or be sure if I'm awake or not. It seems like they're all real... Like all of sudden the dream is real life, I'm awake.. I'm living those moments..  

It gets scary sometimes..

Yet I somehow find the joy in them. 

Sometimes, I control my mind in a way to dream of the same thing again.. I succeed.

    Okay, so I had no idea that this thing has a name. It's called 'Lucid dream' and I wasn't making up stuff when I said I could control my dream. Funny eh?!

  It is an art actually, being able to Lucid dream. 
1- Lucid dream is the ability of waking up in your dream while you're still asleep. The conscious mind is awake inside your unconscious mind. It feels so real.
2- Lucid dream is when you realize that you're dreaming, but you're somehow awake inside your own dream. So whatever happens you know you won't get harmed because it's just a dream.

  Well, I didn't really know there is such thing... I just happened to have so many dreams where I knew it was a dream yet I kept on going on with the dream. There also were sometimes where I could control what exactly I wanted to see in my dreams and I really enjoyed every moment of it. If I'm not mistaken I slept longer at that while just to keep dreaming. However, sometimes all this got really scary. I could not describe the fear I had when I woke up because it felt so real, I couldn't -for a while- know if it was real or just a dream, it's amazingly scary yet enjoyable.
I don't know if this other case that I have faced has a name too or if it's considered as Lucid dream or not, but it happened to me twice where I knew I was sleeping, yet I felt like I wasn't in my own body, like I was staring at myself sleeping. I know this might sound really crazy but it happened and I was horrified because I couldn't control myself or wake up, all I know is I saw myself for few minutes maybe it was seconds and then blacked out. this shizz is scary I'm telling you.
   I don't know about you but as I was thinking about this whole thing and as I'm writing it right now I'm thinking of the movie 'inception'. That movie had messed up my head a while back when I saw it.  [my lucid dreams were even before watching the movie so no, it had no effect on inspiring me at all ].
   Furthermore I will repeat this : Your dreams are nothing but the thoughts inside you. Yes, you're the one who builds your own dreams whether you know it or not [ subconsciously or consciously.]
   
    just so you know, it's normal and healthy. Yes Lucid dreams have no harm on anyone.

    I've also read somewhere to know if you're dreaming or not look into the 'mirror' if it's blurry and you can't see yourself, then it is a dream. Look at your hands, feet or any body organ if it's normal and usual size or do they look weird :p ,  if you're doing things that you don't really do in real life then yeah it is a dream. 
The easiest way that Dad told me about whenever I asked him 'am I dreaming?' is to let someone pinch or slap you.. if it hurts then DUH you're awake otherwise enjoy ;p


   I think I will make a journal about all those amazing dreams I enjoy every night. Got a story or a dream wana share? I'm the right person.. I enjoy telling and hearing about dreams.
there is a box there --> where you could write me a message or something so feel free to, otherwise if you want it to be private then I might as well give my email, just let me know :p


x

Seal your lips!!!

  What happened to the word 'private'
Doesn't it mean anything, anymore?

    " Got a secret
      can you keep it,
      swear this one you'll save! 
     Better lock it in your pocket taking this one to the grave, 
     If I show you then I know you won't tell what I said,
     coz two can keep a secret if one of them is dead! "

  Awesome people who watch pretty little liars are familiar with the lyrics above ^
  
  Dad always told me, if you tell someone your secret, it's simply not a secret anymore. He was right, even though I couldn't agree back then with him, but life always teaches you the hard way when you don't listen to your parents eh? 

  Perhaps it was easy to find a true person back then -long long ago- but it's really difficult to find one nowadays eh? No one is simply loyal, it's all about 'looking for your own good' [ ma9ali7 ]
  
  I won't comment furthermore about loyalty, friendship etc.. I'll focus on the topic I had in my head; Sealing your lips!
   
   Some people don't have the word 'privacy' in the dictionary of their lives. They would constantly talk about everything without the feeling of 'shame'. What I mean by that is, they would just talk about their personal life to whoever, whenever! Get the picture? We don't want to know what you did in the shower! We don't want to know what 'x' said to you, we don't want to know what time you went to the toilet! SEAL YOUR DAMN LIPS!
   Maybe tell one person, your bestfriend or something but don't tell it to everyone you meet. Those are the people anyone should avoid -unless you're a gossip person, then your job is done perfectly when you're with  these people-

    Where is your dignity? You know that these things are all related right?

  Sitting with such people ruins my mood. They drain all the fun out of life. Also, I feel so uncomfortable with such kind, because anything I say next would be used against me, you know how that works.
    
   Before telling your secrets or anything to anyone, make sure that person won't ever use those against you in the future no matter what happens [goodluck in finding such person].

  It's not fun knowing every little detail about your life if I don't really know you well, and if we're not 'real' friends.

   I think that is one of the things people with no personality face? I don't know... but as I deal with more people everyday I figure out no one knows how to seal their lips. Okay, so I tell you something even if it's not a secret I wanted to tell you, you only there is no need to go and tell everyone.. BAH!

   As you're reading this post I'm sure you'll be thinking about some people who are like that, just a reminder be careful of what you say. There is an arabic quote :

  لسانك حصانك ان تصنه صانك و ان اهنته هانك

which means : your tongue is like a horse, if you use it wisely it will save you, if you miss-use it, it will give you hell.

     So yes, try to take it as advice and seal your lips. Not everything you hear is for sharing. & your personal life is yours, you don't have to tell people you just met what you did, know what I mean?

When my 'blood glucose' decides to go 'hypo'

Hello Lovelies,

     So as you read in the previous post, I was explaining about Diabetes and all. I've received so many messages thanking me for that post and that it was useful, I'm so happy and glad it was useful, and as I said I can answer anything related. 
    On this post I will talk about when my blood glucose decides to go hypo.    
    The full form of hypo is hypoesthesia. It means when there is an abnormal decrease. 
    Funny thing that inspired me to write about this is because when I woke up today my sugar was really low. 
    Now you see when I was in Oman, if the sugar goes low I crawl to my mom's room and wake her up or yeah just go to her and she would check the BG, if it was low she would give me chocolate [ that was like a grand prize ] that she hid, especially for me. I loved that a lot and she laughed sometimes saying ' yeah aren't you happy about that, you sneaky little thing'. It was so much easier there because when hypo attacks me I become so helpless, I can't literally move. The feeling is so horrible, I feel so weak and tired that sometimes I pray not to die or go in comma. All I think of at that time is 'stay focused you can do this'.
     Here since I'm all alone, I have to have chocolate in my bag if I'm going out, or next to me on bed if I'm sleeping because like I said it's hard to move then.  That's one reason I hate to keep my BG in a normal rate before I sleep, since I sleep for long time the sugar goes low, and then I wake up in trouble. 
  
  
   God bless my mom, and my whole family. I miss them so much.


Till the next post, stay safe readers x

Story of my life : Diabetes !

    I'm 20 years old now. I'm living with 'diabetes' since 10 years now.
    I might share my story some other time.  

   I know, you might say 'ah well, you can't eat sugar and sweet things, that's what's it all about' but no. There is more you should know. By writing this blog I'll refresh my memory with the things I might have forgotten and I might answer some questions that you might have, or wondered about, also to give an awareness.

   There is an organ in your body called the 'pancreas'. This organ produces 'insulin'. Insulin helps keeping the glucose level in your body stable. Now what you need and have to know is that whenever you eat any kind of food, inside your body it breaks down into sugars. The main sugar is called 'Glucose'. Glucose gives you energy, yet to remain healthy the glucose should be neutral, not high or low!

* Symptoms of having Diabetes:

- Getting thirsty a lot.
- frequent urination
- continues hunger
- weight loss
(in my case, I shivered a lot and felt weak too)

 * Diabetes are two types.
- Type 1 :
This could happen to children, up to age of 20? (Juvenile or young adults)
People with diabetes type1 are treated with insulin ( injections)
It's not genetic when it's type 1 Diabetes. You just get it because your pancreas is tired and doesn't want to work. don't blame ol' granpa ;p

- Type 2
This happens to people who are 40+ years old. These people are lucky they don't have to deal with injections [ some cases, they do] They could either take pills or just follow a certain diet.



    You see it has a long term effect too! Like if the glucose level is high most of time this would effect on the future of a person. These threats are mainly to people with type 1 diabetes.

* The threats :
- Atheroma ( hardening of arteries) : this causes heart attacks, stroke and poor circulation.
- Eye problems: it would effect on vision
- Kidney damage\kidney failure
- Nerve damage
- Foot problems ( some people have their toes cut off, true story)

Also, when the glucose goes low, it's dangerous! Matter of fact, it's more dangerous than when glucose is high.
* When Sugar is low these are the symptoms :
- sweaty 
- Confused
- unwell
- shivers
- comma < most dangerous!
In case of a person having 'hypo' which means glucose going low, a person should drink a juice. Juice has faster effect than anything in increasing the level of the glucose. One more thing, anyone who's facing a hypo situation should drink the juice\eat chocolate by themselves, they need to stay conscious and do it by themselves, otherwise it's dangerous to feed them. In worse case scenario, a person should be injected with a special kind of medicine.

It's very important to check the blood glucose before having a meal, and 2 hours after the meal. Keeping blood glucose in normal range which is between 5.0 - 7.0 is important.


 There is something else I would like to introduce in this topic : Insulin pump.
  This machine makes life easier, with it, a person who's got diabetes can eat and drink anything s\he wants, yet with it comes lots of responsibilities. [read further about it please]

     So basically, it's a machine with a pipe that's connected to the body. As you can see from the picture above, it can be injected in the belly, also on the thighs. The second picture shows what's exactly connecting to the body. This is inserted by an injection, the injection then gets removed and the pipe remains still in the body.

   So many people ask if it hurts, no it doesn't hurt. I don't even feel it there. Injecting sometimes hurt but common, it's just a tiny pain. People ask also if it's a one time thing, no it's not. I have to change it every 3-4 days, depends on how much insulin I use.

Two main things you should know about the machine, it has a 'basal' and a 'Bolus'

   1- Basal:   It's the background insulin that pancreas supplies the body and it's present 24 hours a day. This machine has an option that's called 'Basal' as well, and it does the same work. it gives a fixed amount of insulin to the body 24hours. A person who wants to use this machine should sit with the doctor\nurse and set up the basal needed. 

[ My case : 2 basals are used. 12.00 am : 1.00U\h. 11.30 : 1.10u\h ]

   2- Bolus: It's the extra insulin the pancreas supplies the body when the person eats something. And this machine has it too. The thing here is that you need to check the blood glucose before eating any meal, then count the carbohydrates the meal contains, put them in the machine and it will tell you much insulin your body needs, and it gives it to you.

It's important to check the blood glucose after two hours, to see if the glucose level is normal or not, if not then you put the number in the machine and it shall give you the correction.

   Earlier I mentioned it allows the diabetic patient to eat\drink anything, it's true but with so much response and not everyday. It could be once a month, or something like that. Also the person should still be taking care of the regular diet, and exercise too!

   Final tips : Taking care of feet is very important. Now I don't know about most, but I know that my feet tend to hurt more often, I get this feeling like they're burning, therefore applying cream on it every now and then is necessary and it helps. Also I put my feet in hot water from time to time.

   Some people who have diabetes might get a disease called : Celiac disease

I will blog about it later. I hope this post was useful. For those who didn't know all these information, now you do. Taking care of your loved ones who have diabetes and show them that you know would make them happy and motivate them to take care of themselves more.

 I hope I haven't forgotten anything, if there are any questions or if anyone needs help I'll be glad to help\answer =D

Ciao!

Fun working!

Ahoy!

  It's not literal work what I'm talking about. I'm talking about the school work that I have to do.
  Used to hate it a while ago, perhaps because I had so much to do in so little time? 
  Yes, the pressure of the milestones that we had to deliver every week was a nightmare to be honest. & Yes I dislike working in group. I love and prefer to work alone. It's not that my group sucks or something, but that's my nature! I don't mind working with group when it doesn't include so much paper work. Like when it's activity or something. Also when the purpose is clear. Yes, I preformed badly a while ago and I still feel bad about it but seriously that was a messed up case, and I'm glad it's over. You could always ask if you're interested to know what happened, I'm just not bothered to type it all up right now.


  It's 3.10 am and I'm awake working on a study case that I have to deliver tomorrow. Now, I remember how when the week begun I told myself I'll finish it before time and be an excellent student, but AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT!! Okay, no seriously, what happened?
  Working on it now seems so much fun to me. Am I weird or am I just sleepy? 
Also, by working on it right now twitter, facebook and blog are much more interesting. I know I told myself I'll have at least on post on my blog everyday but who was I kidding, I was excited in the beginning but then I became lazy to post. I either get inspired and I forget about it when I'm free or I get so lazy to post and gather my thoughts again, whereas right now, I'm blogging while doing the assignment. This is how I make it fun to work on.

  Right now I don't know if I'm really sleepy or hungry, all I know is that I'm feeling so crazy. Why can't I feel crazy more often in the day time??

 Another thing that I'm thinking of right now is, whatever assignment I'm doing I could as well make a blog post on it and perhaps help other students like me who're looking for answers, you know? They might feel happy and then say something like 'god bless you' or yeah the good words. I know if I found a blog post that has all the answers I need that person would be my favorite. That person would actually be my hero. So yeah, I'll be your hero minions.

   2nd thoughts, I might be too lazy to post the answers.. but I'm considering it so visit more often who knows, you might get the answers!! [ to my classmates, this might not be useful for you, and this is not for you it's for the next generation minions! =P ]
   At the moment, I'm in a phase where I'm all wounded and I careless about more wounds, if you know what I mean. I won't explain it further so just understand it the way you want. I careless remember?


  Okay I think I'll just ended up here and perhaps post something else if I felt like it? Meanwhile if you really want to read the immediate thoughts as I'm doing the assignment you could just read my tweets!

    xo

Get your inspiration back!!

  Welcome to my blog once again.

  This post is for me, and anyone out there who need their inspiration back.

I'm an excited person, tell me about a task to do I'll be excited to finish it before the time and make sure its good 'sufficient'. I always got inspired, worked with ambitious to get the satisfying result, and that made me happy. Simply because I loved the work I was doing. Therefore, automatically the result would be positive.

  I always encourage 'loving what you do' because I believe if a person loves what s\he's doing, no matter how hard it is, they would be able to finish it with a good outcome. However, those who are forced to do something they don't like, won't get any good result no matter how hard they work, simply cause love wasn't added to the work. You see how love is a key here. 

  Oh well, I'll talk again about how coming to Europe had changed everything in my life, bare with me. 

For some reason, so far all the work I do [ with or without the group ]  is insufficient. It's so hard to keep up, there is no much time for everything, literally.

How does the day end so quickly, haven't finished much, even if I did there's always something missing. Now how is that supposed to inspire me to work harder? I don't like taking my work home, I want to enjoy while I'm home that's why mostly I finish my work at the school library.

  

  Sometimes it seems impossible to get out of this situation. Yet, I remind myself I'm not the only person in this world who's going through this phase, neither am I the first or last one to feel this way. Everyone goes through this phase every now and then. It's important to stay strong.

Anytime you feel unmotivated, or uninspired just remember it's takes few steps to get over the situation, nothing is impossible, you just need to stop being lazy.

  How to get inspired?? 

1- Take a moment, a break.

  you need a moment of relaxation. Something that takes your mind away from all the serious stuff. Do things you feel like doing ; drawing, reading, writing, or playing a sport! Trying to get comfortable would really help. your brain needs a little break!

2- Note down your ideas

  Take a blank paper [not the one with lines] and note down any random idea you have in your head, and it doesn't have to be in an organised way, do it however you like it.

 3- Things you Love.

  Never gets old. This is to get your mood to : Happy Mode! Just note down all the things you love in life. You'll realize your smiling, a slight change would be noticed in the mood. Being happy is important in being inspired.

 4- Dream

 it's okay to have your own dreams. Dreams would give you purpose, it will remind you of what you're doing and why are you doing it.

 5- Try something new

 You're used to a daily routine, same things everyday. It's the time you start something new. Something you've wanted to try but never did. This is your chance for a change, this experience might show you some things you've been blinded to.

 6- Children.

 Do you remember how it was fun being a child? there were not much worries, you could just play all day long. How about spending a day with children and see the world through their eyes? It would refresh your mind. 

 7- Read about it.

  Read blogs, posts, tweets, or quotes that contain the word 'inspire'. You'll know you're not alone in this situation, and you'll always find your inspiration somewhere there. You will get new ideas.

 8- Support

  In whatever you're doing, you will always need support. Even in this, you need the support of your loved ones.

  Hopefully, after doing some of these steps, you're back on the game!! Just remember it's never too late, and you can always achieve your goal if you wanted it badly.

  

   Back to me, I thought I didn't have time for these because I have so much to catch up with, but I was mistaken. I deserve a break, and I have to bring back my inspiration\motivation, otherwise I'm going nowhere.

  Regarding this, I know so many cases, so many stories but I think this post is long enough already yeah? Maybe some other time!!

You're awesome for reading this. Bye!

The Food Love!

  Hello lovely people.

  I love food. I'm the type of person who lives to eat. 
  However, I'm too moody and very picky when it comes to food actually. I don't eat everything and anything. Also, I'm not the type who would want to try something new. I also judge the food by it's look. If it doesn't look good I wouldn't try it, even if everyone said the taste is so great. 
  I know you'd think, how do I eat from the restaurants then, if I don't like to try new food. I only try the new stuff if I saw someone eating it and it looked good enough, or I would ask the waiter to describe the stuff on the menu, and I would choose the best food described to me.
Food has this big effect on me, and whenever I'm angry it's coz I'm hungry. I mean yeah, in the end food will literally change my mood. One more thing I shall add, if food wasn't yummy I would get upset :c !
   In Europe the variety of food is limited. I mean, I don't find any fancy restaurant with food that actually feeds your hunger yet with a good price. In such cases I miss Oman so much, and I also regret the times my parents went to Dubai [UAE] and I said I won't come. The food there is to die for. My Pasta obsession started from there, thanks to Mrs. Vanelliz <3 [the craves!]
     I never get bored of eating the same pasta over and over again. I literally eat pasta  4 times a week? it is an obsession.
    One more thing I would never get bored of : POTATO!!! Either mashed or baked, potato is to die for!!!


   Finally spicy food : I love eating spicy food [ Blame the 1\4 Indian root within me ??] . I can't enjoy any food which isn't spicy. I know it's not healthy but well, good food to me is the spicy food. Spicy but eatable ofx.

  I don't like sauces btw. I don't like adding stuff to my food, but sometimes I don't mind mayonnaise [ if it's fries only]. Otherwise I'm in love with the green tabasco. Green tabasco isn't really spicy but it's really good to add if the food I'm eating isn't spicy. That flavor makes me fly. [ when I say fly, I really do a certain move that I do when something is yummy to the core, know what I mean?! =P ].
  The burns on my tongue are my favorite part, it's so spicy yet so yummy, try eating something hot with the green tabasco. It's the climaxxxx!
  Most of my friends can't really eat the same food I do, they complain it's too spicy, I guess they're just not used to eating spicy food. Meh!
  Sometimes I think my taste sense has gone because of the spice I eat xD  but still, I'm helpless when it comes to eating spicy food, it's one thing I can't really resist.

look at the beauty<3

  If anyone wants to try spicy food, pay me a visit =P I enjoy the company of people who love eating as much as I do, these people are my favorite.

x